Welcome from Australia.
I was once told that anyone who has an IQ over 10 doesn't need to swear !! If that's the case we have a lot of people with exceptionally low IQ's on here.
It also depends on where on the globe you call home. 'Hell' is frowned upon in the USA (or so the TV insinuates) but here it's fine LOL
Don't demean the gifts you have been given. Some very talented people do some amazing things with the cheap Chinese knock off brushes. Use what you have for now and work on muscle memory and grow from within - how's that for philosophy !!
Double ?! Hell, I ordered quad shot of entendre, there seems to be enough to go around, and who's the old bat around here ? I thought I had that honor.
From one newbie to another I wish you all the best on your journey, like a lot of members here, I started late and wished I'd known about it when I was young enough to make a career out of it - and ignore Squishy, she is her own worst critic - she's damn good !!